OCD SUPPORT GROUP - SESSION 48 - REMEMBERING JULIE

[Spikee]

Last weekend was the first chance I had to spend any time in my apartment. It's still strange to call it "my apartment". My entire life I've only had a room, so I'm used to saying "my room". Even now I catch myself when I say "my room" in reference to my apartment. It is weird that it is ALL mine, the kitchen, the living room...all of it.

I enjoy having the place to myself, most of the time. The other times it is lonely. At least I have a dog that greets me when I come home so I'm not coming home to a completely empty place. But still...it is lonely. No one to talk to about my day, my thoughts, my feelings, no one to get a hug from if I'm having a bad day. And other than Moonshot driving me insane with his barking, it's pretty quiet.

Perhaps I'd feel differently if I felt I actually lived here. Right now I feel as if I just sleep here. It seems sort of like a hotel. Instead of feeling liberated I feel disconnected.

It will take a little time, but it will come.  You need to get the 'home' feel to it.  Put up some pictures, some items that you have 'collected' throughout you life.  

[BOZENA]

GOOD EVENING..
I WAS IN BED SLEEPING ALL DAY LONG...

THE KENNY CONCERT WAS A LOT OF FUN...
I AM GLAD SHANNON ENJOYED IT...

I CAME HOME BY 5PM ,,
MADE A LIGHT DINNER...
WENT TO THE AMPHITHEATER
WHERE KELLY WAS  PEREFORMING..

I TELL YOU ALL THIS WAS MY LAST KELLY CONCERT
 I WILL EVER GO TO
MOST OF THE FANS ARE TEEN AND PRETEEN GIRLS..
THE SHOW BEGAN AND THEY ALL STOOD UP....
IF THAT ISN'T BAD ENOUGH THEY STOOD ON THE CHAIRS..'
I COULD NOT SEE A BLOODY THING...
I WALKED ALL THE WAY TO THE STAGE...
SOME YOUNG GUY WITH AN ATTITUDE KEPT
""YELLEING "" AT ME TO GO BACK TO MY SEART...
I TOLD HIM I COULD NOT SEE SINCE THEY ARE STANDING
ON THE CHAIRS...
HE TOLD ME IT WASN'T HIS PROBLEM...
3YOUNG GIRLS TOOK PITY ON ME
 AND LET ME STAND IN THEIR ROW.
AFTER 2 SONGS (of Kelly screaming) I THANKED THEM
AND DECIDED TO GO HOME AND GO TO SLEEP

[BOZENA]

MOONSHOT.....
KEEP PLAYING CLAY SONGS
AND YOU WILL NOT BE SO LONELY...'

THE NEXT FEW DAYS WILL BE HARD
WE ALL ARE STILL IN A SHOCK...

TRY  TO GET A LOT IF REST AND QUALITY SLEEP..

I AM HERE IF YOU NEED TO CHAT...

[Glory]

BOZENA THAT REALLY SUCKS  I AM SO SORRY I WONDERED WHAT A KELLEY CONCERT WOULD BE LIKE NOW I KNOW I THINK I WILL PASS.SLEEP IS BETTER HUH.

[woodstock854]

Bozena,
That is too bad about the Kelly concert!!!!!!!!!!!   Wish you could have enjoyed it more!!!!!!  I DO  love her voice, and hope she is not changing so much that SCREAMING is all she does.  I miss the old Kelly.
Woodstock X48

[Spikee]

Hi Bozena - Have you caught up on your rest yet?
I'm sorry you had a bad Kelly concert.  How frustrating after all the hectic couple of weeks you have had.  

[Claymaniac2000]

Bozena,   Sorry about your bad experience at the Kelly concert. I could have almost guessed it would be like that.  I think about all she appeals to is that type of people.

[BOZENA]

I WAS NOT A BIG KELLY FAN BEFORE YESTEREDAY..
NOW I AM DEFINITELY NOT...

I WILL WRITE TO THE VENUE AND EXPRESS MY DISAPPOINTMENT..
THEY MUST DO SOMETHING FOR FUTURE CONCERTS..      

AT LEAST SHANNON AND I HAD A GOOD TIME WITH KENNY
AND HIS ""TIGHT JEANS""

I CAN'T BELIEVE I SLEPT ALL DAY ...

NOW I AM READY TO GO BACK TO BED

[KSChristian4Clay]

Hi, Woodstock!

Sorry to hear about tour bad experience, Bozena.

[BOZENA]

EVELYN....
DO TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF....

[BOZENA]

MEESA....
I BOUGHT THIS KELLY TKTS
ONLY BECAUSE IT WAS SO CLOSE TO MY HOUSE..

I DO NOT CONSIDER IT A BIG LOSS
AT LEAST I NOW REALIZE KELLY'S FANS
 ARE NOT  LIKE CLAY'S FANS...

[ACcountryFan]

I TELL YOU ALL THIS WAS MY LAST KELLY CONCERT I WILL EVER GO TO. MOST OF THE FANS ARE TEEN AND PRETEEN GIRLS..
THE SHOW BEGAN AND THEY ALL STOOD UP....IF THAT ISN'T BAD ENOUGH THEY STOOD ON THE CHAIRS..'
I COULD NOT SEE A BLOODY THING...
I WALKED ALL THE WAY TO THE STAGE...SOME YOUNG GUY WITH AN ATTITUDE KEPT YELLING AT ME TO GO BACK TO MY SEAT...

I TOLD HIM I COULD NOT SEE SINCE THEY ARE STANDING
ON THE CHAIRS...

HE TOLD ME IT WASN'T HIS PROBLEM...

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Can you believe the arrogance of those people you're talking about! That's a perfect example of why for the most part i like to socialize with older people instead of my peers. The majority of people my age are just so stuck on themselves. Standing on chairs is simply insane to begin with. What would happen if someone falls?? I don't think the venue is gonna want lawsuits or anything heading their way?? Didn't they have a jumbo-tron? Didn't they bring any binnoculars or something? I loved the George Jones show i went to. The audience was pleasant and only got "rowdy" during the up-tempo songs "I Don't Need your Rockin' Chair" and "White Lightning". Of course, the demographic was a mix of late twentysomething's on through people in their 70s...luckily i sat by some older people. If THEY had gotten up on their seats during the George Jones show, it would've been a sight to see!!!

Happy Birthday Shannon! I couldn't get the birthday thread to open! [/size]

[BOZENA]

DID ANYONE WATCH THAT ABC PROGRAM ON AI ???

WAS IT AS CONTRAVERTIAL AS THEY WERE SAYING ???

[KSChristian4Clay]

MEESA....
I BOUGHT THIS KELLY TKTS
ONLY BECAUSE IT WAS SO CLOSE TO MY HOUSE..

I DO NOT CONSIDER IT A BIG LOSS
AT LEAST I NOW REALIZE KELLY'S FANS
 ARE NOT  LIKE CLAY'S FANS...

No fans could be like Clay fans!  

[Spikee]

DID ANYONE WATCH THAT ABC PROGRAM ON AI ???

WAS IT AS CONTRAVERTIAL AS THEY WERE SAYING ???

It was ALL about Cory Clark and his 'relationship' with Paula.  
Nothing about the voteing on AI or the phone problems.  
I don't think that I beleive everything he says.

[KSChristian4Clay]

DID ANYONE WATCH THAT ABC PROGRAM ON AI ???

WAS IT AS CONTRAVERTIAL AS THEY WERE SAYING ???

It was basically like Clay said. It gave a lot of evidence that couldn't exactly go back to Paula. Showed phone bills, but couldn't prove the calls were to her, mentioned an employee for Sprint (whom they didn't interview) saw Corey and Paula together, etc. Very non-specific in their witnesses, as the only witnesses they aired were Corey's family and friends.

[BOZENA]

JERRY..
I WAS TOTALLY DISGUSTED....
AND SINCE I WAS TIRED AND NOT A KELLY FAN
I LEFT ...
THIS WOULD NOT HAPPEN TO ME AT A CLAY CONCERT...
AS I GET THE BEST POSSIBLE TICKETS...

I WILL GO TO THE POST OFFICE ON MANDAY
AND MAIL THE ITEMS I HAVE FOR YOU..

MY PICTURES AREN'T DEVEWLOPED YET

[Spikee]

DID ANYONE WATCH THAT ABC PROGRAM ON AI ???

WAS IT AS CONTRAVERTIAL AS THEY WERE SAYING ???

On the phone bill Cory claims showes Paula calling him, on a phone she gave him, doesn't it make sense that if you are a celibrity, you would have an unlisted phone number?  And if she gave him a phone, wouldn't she be getting the bill?  To much that just doesn't make sense to me.

[Glory]

I AM OFF JUST BEAT 1 MORE DAY PRETTY NIC WORKING 2.5 DAYS A WEEK IF I COULD MAKE A KIVING I WOULD KEEP IT. SWEET OMC DREAMS

[BOZENA]

THANK YOU MEESA....

A LOT OF WIND

 NOTHING SUBSTANTIAL IN THE PROGRAM